97. Day 40

Dear readers,

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Today is day 40 (27th April 2020) of lockdown. I don’t know where to begin or what to tell you all. This week went so fast that it was almost like I didn’t live this week. I did a lot of work. Have quite a few online assignments coming up in the next 15 days.

The building opposite my building had a COVID-19 case, so they’ve sealed the streets. We are under complete lockdown. Essential items and groceries are something we’re getting delivered. We’re practising complete isolation for at least another week.

I read more this week than I have in the last five years. Even though I had a lot of work to do, this week was quite chill. I got to play cards with my family. Every weekend I get to play tambola (Indian bingo or lottery-style board game) with my family over a video call.

I need to devote more time to reading, calligraphy, violin-playing and mandala-drawing along with my work and college assignments. Balancing: is what I need to learn and implement.

I managed to take out my DSLR after almost three years and started experimenting with it again. I need to go back to my basics and get started right from scratch.

Oh, I baked a cake (just like everyone is doing right now) this week. It came out a little bit hard so I’ll try another one this week, hoping it will come out a bit better.

I finally got my PS out and played for around 3 hours this week. Sadly, only one game is working properly, so I don’t have an option to play anything but that. It’s a game I love dearly, so I don’t mind. Here again, I deleted my previous achievements, and I’m playing from scratch because I’ve lost touch.

Well, these are the things that are currently happening in my life. My sleep cycle is finally under control, and I’m getting enough sleep.

I hope all of you are safe and healthy in your house. I hope you’re all washing your hands regularly and are all practising social distancing.

I hope you’re all not wasting water because we don’t want this pandemic to lead to another worldwide natural disaster: water scarcity. I hope you’re all exercising at home.

I understand that it can get a little irritating.

It can feel like you’re stuck within four walls but try to focus on the positives and work on yourself and better yourself so we can all fight this together and resume our lives as soon as possible.

What do you plan on working on this week?

Regards,
Realistic Beginner.

87. Day Four

Dear Readers,

Before I begin my blog, I would like to thank for Gail loves God so kindly nominating me for the Sunshine Blogger Award . It means a lot. Though I would not be participating, it feels so nice to be nominated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

(Technically you’ll be reading two blogs of mine on the same day. Apologies for that. I’d written the blog yesterday, but for some reason, I did not click publish so it got saved as a draft. So, I’m going to start mentioning dates along with the daily blogs to make it easier for me and to avoid confusion!)

This is day four of being in the house (22nd March, 2020). I woke up quite late which I didn’t really have the luxury to do in the last 9-10 months. So I enjoyed sleeping in. I cooked a little. I cleaned a little. Lazed around a little. One important thing I did was clean my study table. I feel like I need to empty my whole room and clean it, only then will I get the satisfaction of my room being clean. Which I shall do soon 😛

I panicked a bit for the first time. People I know were travelling home and the fact that they were going to be in the airport and on the plane scared me a bit. I didn’t want my brother to come back home and luckily slowly all borders are being shut down so I’m glad India is taking drastic steps little by little to control the spread of the virus. I think it was the first time it hit me. Which was a very unpleasant feeling.

As for picture of the day, I selected this:

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I took this picture approximately a year back when I was trying to get placed in a particular college. I love lights like this. I’m generally a person who LOVES light. I’m a little bit of an extreme when we’re talking about lights. Either I want a well-lit room (preferably white light alone or white and yellow light mixed) or absolutely no light at all. But a few light bulbs are so pretty to look at and are so aesthetically pleasing. This light bulb is a perfect example of that. I’d posted this picture on my personal instagram account along with a small 4-line poem that I’d written that to me seemed to fit this picture perfectly. I’d like to include that small poem as well here.

The poem goes like this:

“Things are not going the way I wanted them to
  I may be rotting on the floor feeling all blue
  You could say that I’m biting off more than I can chew
  But I’m not stopping until I see it all through.” 

Hope y’all liked today’s blog. What’s up with you? Leave your views in the comment section below. Hope you’re all safe and are taking the necessary precautions.

Regards,
Realistic Beginner.

86. Day Three

WhatsApp Image 2020-03-19 at 18.16.16 (2)Dear Readers,

On my day three of being in the house, I again didn’t do much. Didn’t do any of the cleaning that I’d planned to do. But I did cook, which was a fun thing to do. I realised that I should want to cook for often. I had a lot of fun on instagram yesterday! There were three things going around.

The first one was a nomination wherein all the women I knew were posting selfies of themselves and showing their support towards empowering women and doing their bit instead of criticising them. It was a beautiful thing going around despite all the cons of feminism and arguments like self-objectification.

The second and third one were also nominations where I was expected to take a screenshot of my friend’s instagram story and add to it by drawing an orange and a carrot and tagging a few more people, just for the lols. It was quite fun to do.

And then I wrote my blog and spent a couple of hours responding to comments, which was quite interesting. I love responding to comments. I had a good time with my family last night and I enjoyed the conversation I had.

I actually planned on posting something today along with my daily update of what I’m doing but it’s taking a little longer to write and I’m getting tired with the work at home. Hopefully by tomorrow, I should be done with the write up and should be able to post it along with tomorrow’s blog.

With regards to COVID-19, there was a massive and the biggest one day jump in the number of cases in India. We’ve reached the 300th mark for the number of cases. It does seem to be getting a little bit more scary. (i’m writing this blog on Sunday and today many cities are on lockdown as time passes by). The city that I’m in will also be on lockdown till March 31st. It’s a scary time and I really hope that everyone are in their homes and are staying safe and are taking the necessary precautions.

With loads of love and regards,
Realistic Beginner.

85. Day Two

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I think I will stick to the daily pattern of blogging followed by most bloggers. I’ll post about a particular day the next day so I can blog about the whole day and not miss out about the later part of the day and what I’m doing then.

The featured picture of this blog was taken ages ago and I love this picture so much. Just looking at this picture puts me at ease instantly. I understand that I’m not really that great at clicking pictures but I’m learning everyday and I’m trying to get better at them.

My day two of being quarantined was extremellyyyyyyy boring. There were moments in the day where I literally just sat down and stared at the wall not knowing what to do. I did a few chores in the house though and I cleaned my bookshelf. I arranged my bookshelf in accordance to the books I want to finish reading by the end of this year. Which I hopefully do. I spent hours on the phone talking to my close friends which was fun and something I enjoyed a lot. I still have a lot of things to do but I’m just procrastinating them so I can do them slowly everyday.

I realised something really important. I mean I always knew the importance of properly worded sentences but I never really implemented it in my life for some reason. I have always been the one who just says things abruptly without really worrying about the consequences or understanding how that would impact another human being. Because I was always under the impression that I’m telling them what I feel, unfiltered.

I learnt yesterday how important it is for a human being to form properly worded sentences and how important it is to not put your feelings on another human feeling because feelings are subjective. They are not truly fully responsible for making you feel the way you do. You have a hand to play in your own feelings as well. It is important to let the other person understand how you’re feeling and you’re entitled to let them know how you feel, but that’s about it. It was quite cool that I understood this yesterday!

I hope things get better soon. What are you all doing at home? What do you think about this blog? Leave your views in the comment section below. Hope you all are safe and are not ill. Take care and be happy!

Regards,
Realistic Beginner.

84. Day One

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To be honest the last few days were spent panicking about my attendance because of the number of sick leaves I’d taken and sorting out the notes I’d missed. I was internally going through two issues that took me a while understand. When I finally did, I didn’t speak about it with anyone and I kept it to myself.

I could slowly start seeing the change in my behaviour because I was getting more and more frustrated with everyone around me. And I didn’t like that I was changing. So what I did was I said both those issues to people I trust. And to be honest that was so bloody liberating. I’m so so glad that I finally opened up and told someone what I’m feeling. My biggest fear now is that nothing will be done now that I opened up about it.

Apart from that, you all obviously know about the CoronaVirus. You all understand how scary this is. I hope you all are safe and are taking all the precautionary measures. I hope you or nobody you know are affected by it. I’m sorry if they are and I hope they get better soon.

Since I live in India, the number of people infected are luckily quite less in comparison to a few other countries. I hope the numbers don’t change and start reducing in India and the rest of the world.

So I had college till yesterday (mainly because I’m a part of a medical college) and from today till at least the end of this month, I won’t have to go to college.

I was kinda gutted that I’ll have to stay home because it’s been so long since I’ve stayed at home and not done anything especially for this long. I’ve only stayed at home if I was ill or if I had to study. And honestly I was a little scared because I didn’t want to face my thoughts that I’ve conveniently chosen to suppress all along. But last night, I got a bit drunk and I spoke it all out which lead to my second paragraph of this blog post. It was so liberating and I slept like a baby!

Today is officially my first day of being in the house. I woke a little late. Went to a bookstore and bought a couple of books. Came back and had a tummy filling lunch. I literally sat with the phone on my bed for at least 6 hours and I ended up feeling guilty because I didn’t do much. I watched the Prime Minister Narendra Modi’s address to the nation regarding COVID-19.

I have a lot of things to do, I procrastinated them all and ended up doing nothing. It was by far the most boring day I’ve had in a long time. I hope things get better soon. And I hope I learn to fight the boredom and fight for things in general.

That’s all for today. Please tell me how things are at your place and how are you doing in the comment section below. Stay safe and try to be as healthy as possible. Loads of love and positive vibes being sent your way.

Regards,
Realistic Beginner.